长篇鬼故事 - 死于重阳

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父亲回来的时候，我正在高烧，神志不清。

病好以后，父亲说，我当时说了很多胡话，什么重阳啊，什么杀人啊，什么菊花啊，什么墓碑啊，乱七八糟。

我笑笑，抬头看着漫山遍野的菊花，觉得一切都是那么不真实。 下山的时候，菊花已经开始谢了。它们在秋风里摇曳着，飘落缕缕枯黄的花瓣，一如我的心情。我不知道明年的重阳节，重阳还会不会来。如果来，他手里捧着的，又会是谁的骨灰呢？反正，我是不会来了。

我告诉父亲，我明年会改在中秋来探望他。我不想再遇到重阳，因为那个时候，我担心自己会忍不住报警。我承认我自私，明明知道自己仰慕的男人是个恶魔，却舍不得把他毁掉……

日子恢复了忙碌，重阳节的恐怖经历，也渐渐在日复一日的忙碌中淡化。有时候，我坐在公交车上，偶尔想起那个阴郁的男人，不禁怀疑当时的一切，或许只是我在高烧中的幻觉。直到2007年的重阳前，我在市中心的美术馆看到一个巨大的条幅，条幅上写着：“死于重阳——献给我唯一打算去爱的人”。

美术馆里，挂满了黄灿灿的画，画里全部是菊花。其中有一幅是我，暖洋洋地笑在阳光下的菊花中。画的落款处写着：“2007年10月19日，我希望她成为我的新娘。”

画展的最后，是作者的自我介绍：

福利院的刘院长说，我生在重阳，所以取名重阳;福利院的院长说，我的母亲死于重阳，所以给我取名重阳;福利院的刘院长说，他捡到我的那一天是重阳，所以给我取名重阳。

这一切都是刘院长根据我襁褓中的信说的。

长大以后，刘院长又告诉我，因为我的出生害死了母亲，所以才会被家人讨厌，才会被遗弃。但我并不怨恨遗弃我的亲人，如果可以，连我自己都想遗弃自己。

有人说我孤僻，有人说我病态，这点我承认。但是，就像画中的菊花一样，病态也可以美得阳光绚烂。 那一年，我到某个满是菊花的墓地写生，邂逅了那个墓碑。自此以后，我就一直活在幻想里。那个墓碑里的女人，据说也是死于难产，死在重阳节。而她的丈夫，竟然也姓“重”。那一刻，我决定把那个墓碑当作自己的母亲，幻想自己有一个温暖的大家庭。

我想，那个墓地，应该是我们一家团聚的地方。于是自此以后每年重阳，我都会上山写生，顺便给自己增加一个想象中的亲人。在我的幻想中，他们没有遗弃我，他们只是死了。他们不是故意的，他们只是不得已，才会留下我一个。

那个山顶上，有我的母亲、父亲、爷爷、奶奶、外公、外婆、姐姐、哥哥以及我的妻子，我按照自己的想象，给他们每个人都画了遗像，这令他们看起来更加真实。每年重阳节，只要到了那个山顶，我就不会感到孤独……

直到去年，我遇到了一个梦想中的女孩，那个女孩和我幻想中的母亲很像。可惜……我错过了她，因为自己的孤僻，以及由于孤僻带来的懒惰，因为自己懒得解释这一切……

我的爱情，死于重阳。

看到这里，我再也忍不住泪如雨下……

Introduce:① weighs this world every year, the summit of this hill, always leave full the chrysanthemum of bright yellow. At first father plants those chrysanthemum, although was not done painstakingly, after a few years, also leave actually full hilltop. In the day Gao Qishuang's Qiu Yang falls, caught beautiful Fu of golden hair like, the languid that taking warm complacently is lazy. Father stays in he is here in the —— in the chrysanthemum of those warm complacently to defend grave person. For me busy to all the year round, also weigh this world every year only, just time visits father, incidentally uprise admires the beauty of flowers, sample father personally the chrysanthemum wine of brew. When one year visits father, I encountered that man. His appearance Jun Lang, taking blue and mature temperament, the back wears greatly picture clip, holding a cabinet and delicate urn in the arms. That year, he lived 7 days on hill, the first day buried urn, the following day pay respects to sb at his tomb, the rest draws chrysanthemum 5 days. When visitting father the 2nd year, I encountered that man again, jun Lang as before, blue as before, mature as before, urn and picture are placed as before. He lived 7 days on hill as before, the first day buried urn, the following day pay respects to sb at his tomb, the rest draws chrysanthemum 5 days as before. When visitting father the 3rd year, I still encountered that man, maturity of before he is maintaining two years is temperamental, lived 7 days on hill again. Imagine like everybody in that way, he buried an urn …… again last year is the 4th year, that man did not come. At that time, I am tasting chrysanthemum wine, with father one does not have a ground to talking about the daily life of a family, the eyes often is taking aim to go up however the road of hill. I remember that man going up every year hill, always be special employ two local to carry he comes up. Daily life of his life of basic necessities of life on hill, also take care of by them. Look, say like father really in that way, graveyard can be canned afford on this hill, it is wealthy person. "Are you waiting for a person? " I what father is smiling to hoping mind is restless. "Oh …… " I had answered a god, some are awkward, "That man did not come this year …… " father did not say, just the look is looking at hill a long time agoly, silent a long time, just sigh piece at a heat: "Probably, his family member had been over to death …… " midday, father requests garden of grave of guard of my for the moment, when oneself issued hill —— to every year only I come, his ability get away arrives near the cemetery of mother of foot of a hill small live, accompany her to say to talk. Of ② autumn afternoon, I like to take a walk in graveyard, the look flits