长篇鬼故事 - 寄生之灵

【7】我又是谁

第二天早上醒来，如我所料，海滩上一片热闹景象，许多警车停在海滩上，许多警察在走来走去，向一些围观者问话。这是又一起凶杀案，每年一起，今年果然没有落空。

但我决定不自首，我的理由是：反正现在我已经清醒了，知道了自己的病灶所在，那么，作为一个心理学教师，一个心理学方面的专业人士，我控制和矫正自己的病态心理和分裂人格，应该不成问题。

但看来我是高估自己了，仅仅是在几天后，一切就又失去了控制，因为素素又回来了，那是一个中午，我突然听到了素素在我身边说话，她说：“月楼，你后悔杀了他们吗？”

我左右看看，没有素素的影子，我战战兢兢地对着空气发问：“素素，是你吗？”

素素回答说：“是我。”

我说：“你在哪里，为什么我看不见你了？”

素素说：“难道你忘了吗？你曾经说过，我们要相守一生，永不分开的，但外面已经不安全了，我只有藏在你的身体里，这样我们就永远在一起了，你害怕了吗？你觉得这样不好吗？”素素又问我。

我说：“不，素素，我一点都不怕，我只是觉得我们不应该再杀人了，我们已经杀了那么多人了，如果再这样下去，我们最终会毁了自己。”

素素突然歇斯底里地尖叫起来，她用一种近乎嘶哑和无比难听的声音质问我：“月楼，你为什么要这样说，你在同情他们吗？但你为什么不想想，他们同情过我吗？如果他们对我有过稍微的同情，那么我就不会被活活淹死，难道你很愿意我死吗？”

我该怎么阻止她？似乎只有报警了。于是，我找到了那个王姓警官的电话，拨通了它，我说：“王警官，我是吴月楼，人是我杀的，这几年来的死亡事件都是我干的，因为我的身体中有两种人格，一个是我妻子，一个是我自己。现在你来抓我吧。”

我放下电话后，就抓起了那把刀，出了门，走向海滩，现在我的心里只有素素的一个声音：“没有时间了，再去杀一个，杀一个就赚一个，快去！”

但非常遗憾，这最后一个人我最终没有杀死，因为王警官非常及时地赶到了，就在我举起刀的那一瞬间，我听到了他的大喊：“胡素素，快放下刀，否则我开枪了！”

我诧异地回过头，问他：“王警官，你为什么喊我妻子的名字，难道你相信是她在杀人？我以为没有人会相信我。”

但王警官对我又是一声大喊：“胡素素，你醒醒吧，不要再演戏了，你丈夫吴月楼四年前就已经在这片海滩上溺水而死了，杀人的一直都是你，我们早就在怀疑你了。”

我以为自己听错了，于是我又问了一次：“王警官，你说什么？”

他又大声说：“你就是胡素素，这里只有一个叫胡素素的疯女人，就是你！”

天啊，怎么会是这样？不，不可能！一刹那间，我心里充满了怨恨，我毫不犹豫地又一次举起了手中的刀，这时枪响了，我只觉身体仿佛被什么猛的击打了一下，然后就软软地倒在了地上，而我持刀的手正好搭在我的右胸口，这时，我发觉它碰触到了一只乳房，一只我非常熟悉的乳房，我妻子素素的左乳房，在那只乳房靠里面的位置长有一颗痣，我经常和我的妻子素素开玩笑，说它是第三只乳头——但现在它竟长在我的身上……

在失去意识之前，我心里的最后一个想法是：莫非我真的是我的妻子素素？

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