长篇鬼故事 - 茶缸里的女孩

拾壹

陆太太倒算仗义，她是唯一到精神病院探望过我的人，事实上，我所有的诊疗费用，也都是她出的。

她说：“我和你的主治医生谈过，你其实没什么大问题。你之所以总是对那个女孩念念不忘，是因为你对她心存愧疚。你好好想想，你到底对她做过什么？”

我轻轻闭上眼睛，我对她做过什么？

不，我什么也没有做，我就是恨自己什么都没有做，我恨自己，恨到咬牙切齿。

那一天，也就是在她成为瞎子的前一天，她紧紧拽着我的衣角，一边紧张地四下张望，一边低低地、急促地说：“姐姐，你救救我，他们明天就要挖掉我的眼睛了，因为那样能讨到更多的钱。”

我挣脱她的小手，加快了脚步，可她依旧紧追不舍：“姐姐，我知道你是好心人，你帮帮我，求求你！我是被拐卖来的，我想我爸爸妈妈，我想继续上学，我长大还想成为科学家……姐姐……”

我也想继续上学，我也有“成为科学家”一类的梦想，所以我不能自找麻烦。那一天我什么都没有做，只是漠然地甩开她的手。我说过，我的同情心，只限于一枚硬币。

拾贰

陆太太将我从精神病院接了出来，依旧做她家的钟点工，仍然不做任何家务，而是帮她一起调查11号别墅的李小姐。

李小姐是一个富商的情妇，她早在一年前就奢盼着能为富商生个一男半女，然后母凭子贵，借势夺取正位，可惜她肚子一直不争气。据说李小姐每天都炖奇怪的肉汤补养，陆太太怀疑那些肉是小孩的内脏，而她女儿就是被李小姐害死的。

陆太太越来越憔悴了。有一天，她凝望着墙壁上的照片，喃喃地说：“要是那一天我没有让她到门外罚站就好了，她只不过背错了一句唐诗而已。都是我的错……”

说完这句话，她马上警醒地大声说道：“不！都怪那个残忍的杀人凶手！他害死了我的宝贝！我要报仇，我必须报仇！”

那一刻，我突然明白，陆太太其实什么都知道。

她知道杀死女儿的凶手已经正法了，她知道朱老师不是凶手，李小姐更不是。

亦如我，我自始至终都知道，那个曾经日夜纠缠着我的女孩，并不是鬼，而是我的心。

我们都一样，一点一点地，把那些无法面对、无从改变的过去，变成愈加无法面对的现在和将来。

我们总是这样。

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